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Dear Jesilee,
I think my body is trying to stop eating. I want to eat, but I can hardly finish two pieces of toast… Fuck
Again, the 10th of March.
Dear Jesilee,
What do you do when you can look the two most important people to you in the eye? I feel like things are going to get a lot more complicated. I honestly hate this and wish I could take back everything and just not have dated boys.
3.10.12
Dear Jesilee,
I thought of self harm for the first time last night. I was at a friends house and we had all in bed. I was talking to my boyfriend. I told him about that other guy. I regret every second of it. I really do. Thinking about hurting myself physically is something I’d never do. At least I thought. I feel like shit. It was a real eye opener though. I definitely think I need to go see a counselor now.
3/8/12
Dear Jesilee.
I’m so happy with my relationship and I love my boyfriend so much. But I think I like someone else. Actually I’m almost positive I like him.
So what do I do? I could say fuck it, give up my relationship of over two years for a fling and break my boyfriends heart. Not even sure how the other guy feels about me. Or I can wait out my feelings, keep them to myself, and if they don’t change do something.
I don’t want to be like brit. Dump my boyfriend just so I can fling with other guys.
Who am I? I’m turning into one of those girls a hate. Omg. Help.
Soon, the name JOSEPH KONY will be as well known as Osama Bin Laden and Saddam Hussein are now. The difference is YOU can help stop this man.
Watch and share this and then choose to change the course of history.
this video was so powerful. makes me want to be apart of the change in the world.I don’t care what type of blog you have. We need to make this man famous! So watch the video, get your action kit and make him known!!!!!!!!
If I’d ask you, who is Joseph Kony, you wouldn’t know. You should. And that’s why I’m going to tell you about him.
Joseph Kony considers himself as a good Christian.
He abducts kids, little girls go in prostitution, little boys become kid soldiers and are forced to do horrible things, things a kid isn’t supposed to do. Neither is an adult, no one is. He started the LRA, Lord’s Resistance Army. 20.000 kids have been kidnapped, this needs to stop. And that’s why we need to Make Kony Famous. Let the world know about the horrible things he does, and the thousands of children and parents suffering.So come together, at the April the 20th. That is the day, we will cover the night. People in all kind of cities, all over the world meet at sundown & cover the city with posters and stickers of Joseph Kony. To Make Kony Famous. If you want to help these kids and parents, cover the night at 4/20/2012.
Not clear enough? Please watch: http://vimeo.com/37119711
Leap day
Dear Jesilee,
Let me start by wishing you a happy leap year.
Now let me present the question. Is it bad to be doubting my relationship? After 2 and 1/4 years, I think I might want to date other people. I don’t know…/: I feel like if we did breakup and I did date other people, I would just want him back. Is that normal? What really is normal? I’m unaware.
2.18.12
Dear Jesilee,
I feel like no one believes in me when I want to try something different. Like… I want to play football. I really truly, honestly do and my boyfriend doesn’t seem to think I can do it and be successful. It makes me nervous, then I want to throw up, then I want to chicken out and email the coach and tell him I can’t do it because I don’t think I can.
The furthest I’ve gotten is feeling all this… I haven’t done any of it, and I’m going to stick it out, do the summer workouts, and show everyone I can do it. I don’t want to give up.. I just get really extremely nervous and scared and don’t think anyone believes in me or thinks I’ll survive or every possible negative feeling that I can possibly feel when I think about actually going through with this…
I’m scared to fucking death. I need encouragement. Fuck my life.
February 17 2012
Dear Jesilee,
What do you do when you have an extremely unsupportive boyfriend?/:
I really really want to play football for the school next year… But he keeps telling me I’ll quit. Then I get nervous and don’t want to play anymore.
What the fuck am I supposed to do?
After a 53 year engagement, John and Rudy are now able to make it official in WA. Here there are where they belong, at the front of the line.
Valentine’s Day.
Hey Jesilee,
I’m so very excited to say I’m doing well. (:
Today. Was like any other day with my lovely boyfriend. We sat on the couch and ate. Makes us sound fat… but that’s what makes us happy. Just being with each other. Isn’t that how it supposed to be?
Don’t answer that. I already know (:
I really love him… a lot. He makes me speechless every time I try and explain it… I LOVE HIM. I mean… it’s only been 2 years, 2 months, and 24 days. Haha. (: I smile when I think about him, I just,…. I can’t come up with words for my love for him.. it’s so amazing. <3
I love him.
Oh..
and today I asked him to buy me a flower, actually I asked for the prettiest one in the entire world and he told me he couldn’t. When I asked him why he told me
“because you’re the most beautiful Rose ever.”
Awee, he’s so cute.. <3
I love him. So frickin much!
January 29ths
Dear Jesilee,
I emailed the football coach about playing next year, I am literally freaking out and cannot believe I just did that. I want to play, but I’m afraid all my friends will make fun of me. Britney encouraged me to send the email, but Zach told me I would cry a lot.. I’m freaking out. OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG. I am going to die.
from embarresment.
seriously. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Oh, and my Aunt Linda passed away. /: the funeral is Tuesday, so I will be missing the second day of a new semester. Great.
januarythetwentysecondtwothousandandtwelve
Dear Jesilee,
I have no faith that I will pass my exams.
On the plus side„ today me and Zach have been together for 26 months :D
oh, and we and my bowling girls are throwing our cute faces at everyone.
Damn straight, that’s how it should be.
About me
My letters to Jessilee, the person who I talk to if I need someone to listen but I don't want to tell anyone in person.
